have you ever taken that path which is so inviting, you know your not supposed to or its an option you can and you want to so badly at that point and then you do and then its all picture perfect just so perfect you cannot believe its true and then months down the line you realise what you've gotten yourself into?

its bittersweet. its so beautiful like holding that bird in your hand more like your holding its existence.

have you seen the face of nature? the breathing soulful nature?
have you felt like an intruder In your own feet?
have you felt unwanted by the people you love the most? not unwanted but an option?
have you wanted to live alone in a crowded city?
to feel like your there but your not there?
to interact with people but not communicate?
to like but not love?
to smile to laugh but not feel anything at all?
its not sadness i'm talking about here. its that hollow feeling you have inside.
the void your not sure how to fill. or its been so full once that its feels empty.
everything you could connect to once lacks connection.
you know its time for yourself. to pick yourself up.
you don't lack the courage, you don't know how to begin.
if you feel lonely with the group of people around you;
if you feel like a waste of space;
if you feel like you have no purpose in life;
if you feel like the end of yourself;
like you cannot bear to think living another day;
like your wasting time and days but you do not know what to do about it;


strip yourself naked. go stand in front of the mirror. run your fingers on the curves of your body.
observe everything. fix yourself. your hair. your clothes.
take a step forward and a deep breath and keep this in mind.

with every emotion that you have felt above there is everyone around feeling the same.

you want to help yourself?  then help the people around you?
they shun you? don't want you around them? be there for them more be an open hand.

scared of the outcome?

you will find answers to yourself doing so. keep your eyes and ears open. keep your vibes welcoming.
you will heal yourself healing others.
only one warning: keep your soul intact.
tainting it with others miseries will get you caught up in others web of blues.

you will be ever so strong. ever so vulnerable to feel that will heal you.

give time to know yourself.
give time to understand what you need, not what you desire because you'll never be satisfied with desire.

eat all that food. do all that exercise.

smile all that happiness, laugh all that joy.

cry the sadness. speak the remaining.
 your not heard unless you've spoken.

you only receive what you give.

you only deserve what you are.

do you know what you are?